i must always remember that i am not solely attributable fer my recovery. there have been many people involved in it. it is my responsibility to recognize em as often as i can, bein grateful fer their time, generosity, and love. it was taught to me early on that gratitude is action, thankful action towards...

all of these mentioned in this mornins daily became a part of bein joel. i would always tell myself i could continue to drink if i just didnt do the stupid shit i did when i was partyin. well, you know, that never happened, i always fucked it up. the result would be the things...

today, i get to be a member of the whole. i no longer have to strive to be someone or somethin i am not. i have a group of friends that are all equal to one another, that share in a common bond. i can live as joel and be grateful fer it. ty lord...

i am grateful today that i am comfortable in my own skin. i can be me today and not have to be liked by everybody. as i continue to grow in this program my need fer acceptance by all is diminishin. today God has given me the courage and strength to be me. this mornins...

i can remember when i started to tell my sponsor all the things in my life i thought were wrong. how if, they, wouldnt have done, this, i wouldnt have done, that. how seemingly, without provocation, i was attacked by whatever it was that caused the problem, and you KNOW, i didnt have anythin to...

before i came into the rooms i always expected people to do the impossible, then got pissed at em because they couldnt live up to my incessant demands or expectations. i even put such demands upon myself and when i failed i would beat myself up over it emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, and spiritually. i have...

when i came into this program i thought i knew what was wrong with me. i didnt understand how i had been affected by my alcoholism or want to do the things THEY wanted me to do. i had to break down some very strong self-will and i needed the courage this thing we do...

it is important fer me to never deny anybody the right to find out if they are like me. i remember when i came here i had a myriad of problems and issues. imagine if someone would have told me, nope, no corn fed not inbred michigan white trash allowed here, idk where i would...

i need to strive to be better than yesterday. it is why i made the decision to change my life so many years ago; the way i WAS livin it DID NOT work. i was done settlin for second best when i felt within i was worth more than my alcoholism had driven me to...

i was speakin with my sponsor once about service work in the group. i asked him how long i should do any one thing. he told me that 2 years is good enough. he said if i do more than 2yrs i may want to form an ownership of the position and that is not...