i have learned that there are many avenues to sobriety. among those pathways is religion. though i am not a religious person, and am not a member of a congregation today, the religion i was taught as a child for years still holds truth to me. religion is not what i used to get what...
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It was another bleak, cold, mid-winters night in the prairies. Beneath the howling wind, the church basement was a blur of wood paneling and folding tables adorned in plastic, disposable coverings. The kitchen boasted worn out linoleum and dated, UN-matching, olive green and orange appliances. None the less, IT was crowded, stuffy and indistinct chattering...
faith, i lose it when my spiritual malady steps in to take over my life. hope has no avenue for healthy development, existence, or survival, when im wrapped in self. today, my first inclination when i run into difficult situations is to quickly thumb through my mind thinkin bout any possible situation i may have...
when back in the days of doin my dirt i didnt care too much about what others were doin as long as they were doin what i wanted em to do. as ya can probably imagine, others doin what i wanted em to do didnt happen very much, even as i spent much of my...
it has been my experience that when i ask my HP to help me practice and live the character assets that i have developed as my recovery has progressed, with His assistance, i am granted those assets so i may step out of self and use them to help others. each of the character assets...
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on a day such as today, my birthday, as tough as it may still be today to not live out my self-will, i have an account through personal inventory, which provides knowledge, experience, and wisdom of just what my self-will can do for me. workin toward livin a new way of life today urges me...
it has been my experience that when i slight serious prayer and meditation, i suffer; that shit dont feel good man. i aint tryna go back to the days of doin my dirt. if i want to continue enjoyin the satisfactions of dealin with the realities of life, enhancin my spiritual condition, self-examination, prayer, and...
i still get struck at times with periods of procrastination today. often times i fool or lie to myself usin the excuse that if i wait and not rush into shit, relyin on self, the answers will come. prayer can be one of those occasions when my self-will steps in and i try to figure...
in my youth i had started to develop a loneliness that only grew as my life went forward. to say it never tortured me would straight up be story tellin ya. i reckon, it was somethin that i just tolerated or came to terms with as i used alcohol and drugs to sooth it. and...