after bein shut down fer so long wallowin in my own self-loathin, misguided, leadership, it was nice to finally be out in the real world. it took me time to finally get back into the swing of normal life. i have a friend who refers to "them", people who have been in the program fer...

i remember mike smilin when i would mention how i was feelin about a certain situation or about how i was feelin about a way i may have managed somethin. he assured me it wasnt because he was makin fun of me or laughin at me. he told me it was because he remembered feelin...

i was amazed when i came into the rooms at how many people from different levels of society were affected by alcoholism. i, maybe, like many others, thought it was just derelicts and trench coats that were alcoholics. many may have ended up that way, like myself, but after a period of time in recovery,...

my sponsor told me, joel, its up to you. here are facts, here is what i did to stop the melee, its up to you to do it. i was broken down enough finally to accept the facts and do as my sponsor suggested. i wanted change and knew there was only one way to...

i have seen what i believe is the work God has done in the lives of others. as i watched people around me get this thing and gain the ability to live life without utter chaos in their lives, i had to face the fact that somethin in their life was workin. they had faith...

i needed a sponsor to get a clear understandin of what i needed to do to get sober. i also needed him to teach me the right things to do to stay sober. this required a commitment on my behalf to want to change the way i was livin. my sponsor and others showed me...

i like what this mornins daily reflection readin says. today i can expect good healthy things from myself and others, but i must always be aware when they become demands. usually, they are demands even i, simply cant even live up to, yet are musts fer others. this program has taught me the way of...

i can remember thinkin i could outsmart my alcoholism by overthinkin it. if i learned what to watch fer, then not do it, i would be golden. after gettin sober and lookin back i learned that my choice of escape, no matter what it was, was cunnin, bafflin, and powerful. i could never outsmart it,...

there are still times where it is all about me. i can remember, almost fightin to the death with people, just to prove to them that i was right or was the one that was most important. “to the death,” words i chose carefully, cause thats how insane i was. today, i no longer have...

today i have an understandin of how fear, and me wantin to control stuff, really leads to self-destruction fer me. when i take control of things that are critical areas of my life without consultation and guidance, or thought of what the outcomes may be, i often let fear take over and tend to mess...