i didnt know what to do or how to even begin the process of savin my ass from the certain death i knew was comin if i had continued doin my dirt. drinkin had long stopped bein a luxury, or even workin, and after every attempt i tried to control it, the only thing left...
i had big time trust issues throughout my life. it seemed when ev i tried to trust another just as sure as im writin this now, they would go against me harmin me without regard to how i would take it or how i may feel about it. i never thought of the expectations i...
i had faith before i came into the rooms and started practicin the 12 spiritual principles of recovery. it was just misplaced in self and other material items. never was there a thought of havin faith in God unless i was in some kinda trouble and needed a santa god to rescue me. yeah mannn,...
in approachin step 8 i had already took a look at my character defects and shortcomins. it was now time to look at the people i harmed and how i had weaponized my character defects and shortcomins to harm those around me. i had written a list in my 4th step personal moral inventory, so...
as ive lived through each step, and more than once. as ive practiced each step, again, more than once. willingness continues to be a mainstay spiritual principle i must continue to practice. i aint even gonna try to tell ya, or even try to convey, that i go to pound town every day on each...
i reckon i need to try to understand the difference between theory and practice before i can understand how to use each. when i think of theory, i think of tested general propositions, commonly regarded as correct, that can be used as principles of explanation and prediction for a class of phenomena. when i think...
when i breakdown the serenity prayer i get an in depth meanin: more than just the meanin of acceptance, courage, and wisdom. startin with the 1st word “God”, i use humility to get a sense that there is a bein in my life far greater than i, my HP. when i say “grant,” im admittin...
last night i went to a meetin which is held on the last friday evenin of every month where the recoverin community meet and have a big dinner. then there is a speaker. after the speaker everyone who had an anniversary durin the month gets a token. they start at 1 month through 1 year,...
when i went through my 4th step personal moral inventory with my sponsor, we discussed the many opportunities id had to give, but instead took. we discussed how my selfishness and self-centered fears wouldnt allow me to give. because of the emotional harm i suffered as a child, i learned how i had to try...
i understand today just how blessed i am to have been able to have surrendered to the disease of alcoholism. i know not everybody wants what i have, but that doesnt mean i cant humbly offer what i got. i just got off the phone with a friend who is drinkin still today. as he...