honesty has many facets to it that were hard to conceptualize when i first came into the rooms. i was tasked to keep shit simple then and that alone was an exercise in self-control. it was with a willingness to let go and try to let God, that i learned small bits of self-honesty and...
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i remember realizin that i didnt drink like other people could. that i always drank more, that i always drank later, that i always drank longer. i thought it was cool, til the really bad stuff started happenin. losin jobs, not payin bills, losin my family, and finally losin everythin and anyone i had ever...
it had to be the hand of God that saved me from my drinkin, His divine intervention. just as important was the fellowship of this thing we do that He introduced me to. i had tried everythin i could think of to be able to drink respectably & stop when i wanted. in the end,...
there did come a point where the only thing left fer me to do every day was drink. as much as i really didnt want to i had no choice, real alcoholics will understand. today the desire has been lifted through rigorously followin a few simple suggestions. for years i didnt think that i was...
by the time i had quit drinkin i had tried everythin i knew to control it. i knew that i was hit, i didnt know what else to do. there came a time that if i wanted to live life free of drinkin & druggin that i had to change, but i didnt know how...
i remember the day i had finally had enough. for years i thought that if i quit drinkin & druggin i would be a loser, laughed at & scorned by my peers. today through the victory of surrender i know different. i take that fear and use it as a basis to continue on with...
i really dont know when i crossed the line that made me an alcoholic, but i do remember the loneliness of my alcoholism, when the dreadful and hideous four horsemen wanted to befriend me. i can never forget that, it hurt. i am grateful today that with Gods help i no longer have to live...
fer a while, early in recovery, i wondered how people lived without drinkin to take the edge off. i can also remember the loneliness that seemed to encompass my very core, it was not fun. i remember not wantin to hurt anybody ever again the way i had hurt my loved ones around me, the...
fer me, i have to take this God given 12 step program everywhere i go, every day. i find it works better fer me that way. it can be hard at times, and i can sometimes feel like there is no God, but i know deep within He is there watchin me in everythin i...
when i came into the rooms i was made aware that the 1st spiritual principle was honesty. i can recall lyin to myself thinkin i had always been an honest person. ive since learned of the self-deception and true powerlessness i used to live because of self-dishonesty. ive learned how unmanageability had me doin shit...