as my recovery has progressed and evolved over the years, i have come to rely upon and build a relationship with a Power greater than myself. when at first a flimsy reed, as its called in the big book, it has become a force in my life that is strong and steadfast. even when i...
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2*21*22 is the day I am staking a claim to in order to turn my life around. In the past few years it has gone from bad to worse to now getting divorced. I have brought most of this upon myself and the alcohol who I thought was my friend is the devil behind the...
this mornins readin always gives me hope! it shows me that this thing we do, this thing i do, takes time to get. it doesnt happen overnight. when in the days of doin my dirt i had always tried to separate myself from others. whether they were from a different social class, ethnicity, economic, sides...
it took me time to turn it all over when i first came into the rooms. its not that i didnt or couldnt believe in Him, its that when i had tried in the past, and im talkin years ago, in my youth, nothin ever seemed to come from my belief. maybe i pushed my...
i must be even more committed to my recovery today than i was when i first walked into the rooms this last time. even as i may have several years of recovery behind me, i am even more in danger of fuckin up than ever before. and just cause i got time under my belt,...
i love how the promises offer me the gift of hope! it is through action on my behalf that i get to experience em come to fruition in my life. and i cannot take em as achievements as much as i may want to. they are the gifts of stickin to my program of recovery...
when i first came into the rooms i didnt know if this recovery program would work for me. i was full of fear and had suffered through self-indulged ego problems. i had tried everythin i knew to stop the chaos that my alcoholism provided me. to say i had demanded myself to stay sober, to...
i must admit, that many years i was way too smart fer my own damned good. and even in recovery, with several years behind me, i can still fall prey to the self-delusion that i am smarter than the program and smarter than my HP. and boy dont the spheres have their way of makin...
It was said today "we are the lucky ones to be in this room" Lucky is an interesting word. In the past, I defined it as opportunity meeting preparation. Maybe so maybe not. As stated before, I need to question everything I had believed in the past. Yet the word lucky struck me. You see,...
doesnt it always seem that when i go to thinkin i deserve somethin i aint gettin that i start gettin all irritated, frustrated, and eventually, pissed off? and isnt it true that the wants i want arent usually what my HP may need me to have? yeah mannn, selfishness, self-centeredness, is usually what i got...