I was first diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder back in 2015. So far, every attempt at a romantic relationship since then, has been the feeling of being unsafe with each partner – either Physically (due to sexual abuse or handled roughly), Emotionally (from being yelled at, gas-lit, or having a random argument started with...
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the 7th step prayer is a prayer that i use when surrounded by the character defects and shortcomins of self. how easy it can still be for me to get swallowed up in self-pity when i am not spiritually aware. ive learned that anger is the result of not gettin my way in the present....
unfortunately, my alcoholism doesnt do joel half-assed, so, i learned early in my recovery that i cant do recovery half-assed. when i asked my HP to help me with my character defects, i had to be willin to do the things necessary, whether i liked it or not. with my shortcomins i must practice my...
peace of mind is a beautiful gift. many times, i sit in meetins or hang around others and watch em. though they may be sittin in a still place, i can feel the energy pourin out of em. i reckon its cause i used to know that energy too, all too well. and it aint...
i dont do everythin right all the time, i still make mistakes. i still say and do shit without thinkin, causin others, and myself, harm. i can say that those words and acts have lessened over the years of practicin my recovery, but i still dont do things i should be doin. the short prayer...
July 19 Fulfilling Our Dreams "Dreams that we gave up long ago can now become realities." Basic Text, p. 68 All things begin with a dream. But how many of us fulfilled our dreams while using? Even if we managed to complete something we had started, our addiction usually robbed us of any pride in...
i cannot say that i unintentionally deprived myself of Gods help back when i was out doin my dirt. i can say i intentionally did. i was raised in a baptist home and i knew what religion was, i chose to turn my back on it and head out to find my own way. i...
recovery from my alcoholism has taught me that i should be grateful for all the blessins ive received and which i do not deserve. gratitude to God for all His blessins will make me humble. when i remember that i could do little by myself, and now must rely largely on Gods grace in helpin...
when i was out doin my dirt i thought i had everythin under control. i didnt feel like i suffered too much because, “i got this”. and sometimes i did do everythin just right. that always gave me the confidence i needed to try again. i learned in my recovery, through many personal inventories, that...
Chapter Five: Relationships We don't all come into NA alone. Many of us come into recovery with partners, children, parents, and others we are close too. But many of these relationships have been damaged by our disease. As we recognize that we can't fix it all at once, it can be tempting to just walk...